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The well known. 

It's all a haze of confusion. I get myself to a point where I know what I want and what I'm aiming for, then you do a switch again and it all becomes too confusing. Do you want me or not? Don't leave me hanging. Because I was ready to tell you I want to move on, because I hate feeling this way. I need to build up trust with you again, and if you really do want this, you have to make an effort to help me build it.
I can't continue on this track. Something has to change soon, because I'm heading towards a fork in the road and a part of me is ready to take the unknown path, just to see what happens.
I could take the path well travelled. Heck, I want to take that path. But my heart and my head are not working as one. And I've learnt that they need to, otherwise it will just never work.
I'm making a stand. I've learnt my lessons. So you have to do a lot for me to choose the known path again. It won't be the same.


The missed.

I miss you. Just the good times. I hated the bad times. You made me so down on myself and my body. But I miss the fun weekends we had, the fun things we got up too. But you never did what you said you would, I always wound up forking out when you said I wouldn't have too and I never felt beautiful, even when you said it to me. I have to remember that.



I've reached a point where my heart is completely barricaded. I don't want to get hurt again.